Inner Light
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Personal Evolution

Brief moments of awareness...
like the immersion
of a skipping shell
in the liquid
of another life.

Suppression...Submission...Denial
Insistence...Duality...Fear
Anger...Confusion...Dissociation

Coalescence of self...
the protecting shell
loses momentum,
ceases skipping,
and begins to sink.

Control...Struggle...Pain
Loss...Crisis...Acknowledgment
Hope...Death...Existence

Birth of identity...
the sinking of the shell
propels up a splash,
a pearl of dew,
which hangs suspended.

Trying...Failing...Crying
Learning...Knowing...Growing
Assimilating...Adapting...Being

Examination of soul...
while gravity stops,
the revealing lens
zooms through the wet,
uncovering layers.

Exhilaration...Disappointment...Loss
Pride...Necessity...Doubt
Honesty...Certainty...Change

Assertion of gender...

Vibration of ego...
internal bonds break,
the mist that was dew
drifts on the wind,
scattering slowly.

Listening...Traveling...Speaking
Reading...Witnessing...Writing
Relocating...Suffering...Returning

Perusal of purpose...
catching an updraft
the mist attaches
to motes of dust
from other life paths.

Joining...Disclosing...Contributing
Attending...Despairing...Meeting
Enjoying...Loving...Committing

Analysis of life...
shifting perspective
the damp dust
provides fertile ground
for germs of wisdom

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--Robyn Elaine Serven
--January 17, 1997